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mysteriousgal11) wrote2013-01-31 08:59 pm
Commitment [Chapter 4/12 Part 1]
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mysteriousgal11Rating: PG-13 [for now]
Pairing: TaDaiki
Genre: Fluff, Angst and life
Summary: Arioka Daiki has been Takaki Yuya's secretary for almost a year. He prides to his self on keeping their relationship purely professional until a business trip to Hawaii proves to be for his undoing. The heat of the sun strokes the flames of passion, and Daiki can't resist his boss. But one night they got a shocking news, Arioka Daiki, a male, got pregnant.
CHAPTER 1, CHAPTER 2, CHAPTER 3
CHAPTER 4
Part 1
Joining Takaki for a night at his room went against every one of Daiki’s self imposed rules. The trouble was Takaki had a way of making him break them. He made him laugh tonight: He had been fun company, something he had never imagined his employed being. He had made him almost cry as well, with his generosity.
“What would you like? More wine perhaps? Or coffee? A brandy, even?”
“Coffee, please,” Daiki answered. “I’ve already drunk more than I’m used to.” Not that he was drunk or anything like that. He only had two glasses, but that was one more than normal. In fact he rarely drank alcohol. Christmas and birthdays were the sum of it.
Expecting Takaki to lift the phone and order their drinks, Daiki was pleasantly surprised when Takaki crossed to the open-plan mini-kitchen at the other end of the spacious sitting are and proceeded to make a coffee himself. This gave Daiki time to observe the large suite, soft cream leather sofas, deep-piled cream rugs gracing the walnut floors, painting and chandeliers. The room was furnished well, but this was something else and he knew what it had cost just to book it for a few days! Almost more than he earned in a year.
“Here we are.” Takaki was joining him in the sofa already, setting out a coffee pot and two china cups on the low table that sat between two of the sofas, cream and sugar followed.
“I’ll pour,” Daiki said quickly. It would give him something to do and would stop him from looking at Takaki, at those large capable hands. He didn’t know what had got in him but he could imagine those hands on his skin, holding him, touching him and arousing him.
Alarmed, perhaps he should leave now. Perhaps it had been a mistake allowing his self to enter Takaki’s room. When Daiki’s hand shook as he lifted the pot, Takaki immediately leaned forward and took it from him.
“Careful, its heavy. I should hate you of you hurt yourself.”
Their coffee safely poured, they both settled back on their seats, now opposite to each other. Another mistake for Daiki, Takaki never took his eyes from him.
“I think it’s about time that you told me something about yourself, Daiki. You’ve been secretive for far too long.”
Daiki suddenly felt unease. “There’s not really much to tell that you don’t already know.”
“I know you’re nervous with people near you. Why is it like that? Did something bad happened to you?”
It was such a direct question that there was no way to escape it. He wa silent for so long that Takaki spoke again.
“Was it a lover? Someone who let you down badly? Is that why you..?”
Daiki took a deep breath, held it for a few seconds, and then let it go quickly. “My father didn’t allow me to have a lover. I told you he wasn’t very nice, didn’t I? The truth is that….that he used to beat me.” There, the words are out, the confession made. The hardest thing Daiki had ever had to do. He looked down at his hand that’s shivering on his lap, he didn’t see Takaki’s frown and shocked eyes.
“I’d really rather not talk about it.” Daiki’s heart began to race and he started shivering, and the next second, Takaki was already on the sofa beside him, his arms around him, saying nothing but making the sort of hushing sounds, like calming a baby. It was not until his heart settled, until his body stilled, that Takaki began to murmur words of comfort.
“It’s all right Daiki, you’re safe with me. No harm will come to you. I will never hurt you, I promise. You can relax. Just close your eyes and relax.”
Daiki heard the words through the think wall in his mind and gradually, as Takaki kept repeating the words he said like a mantra, Daiki’s father for once is amazingly forgotten in his mind. He’s awre only of Takaki’s warmth, of the strong arms holding him, of the latter’s heartbeat against his body.
When Takaki touched his fingers to Daiki’s chin and his face up to his, he saw not his employer, not Takaki Yuya’s tough aura but warm, caring and protective Takaki Yuya. A Takaki whose adorable eyes were soft with concern. Without realizing what he’s doing, Daiki snuggled close to Takaki.
Never in Daiki’s life had he felt as safe as he did now. No person had ever held him like this, made him feel secure as though her whole world had turned around and no one would mistreat him ever again. He had not believed it’s possible and for his boss, of all the people! His father always told him no person would ever look at him twice. He had said it so often that Takaki had believed it.
Daiki knew that he should move now, that he had recovered, but pulling away from Takaki was the last thing he wanted and the latter seemed in no hurry to let him go either.
“Are you sure you don’t want to talk about it?” Takaki asked softly. “It might help.”
“No, I’m sorry. I couldn’t.” It was humiliating by far. Even though Daiki’s father was dead, he still didn’t want to talk about him. “I never will. And I’m sorry I …”
“Don’t keep apologizing, Daiki. I’m glad that you’ve told me. It helps me to understand you.” Takaki trailed a gentle finger down the side of Daiki’s face, pausing a moment before tracing the outline of his lips. Then he touched Daiki’s fingers to his mouth and kissed them before placing them against Daiki’s lips again. “You’re adorable guy, both inside and out, and you don’t deserve to have gone through what you have. I reiterate my promise that I will never do anything to hurt you.”
Daiki let out his breath slowly, feeling his body relax. He liked Takaki holding him, touching him, and the words the latter is saying to him. It was almost as though he had been transported into a different world, a world where everything was beautiful and sensual and no one ever hurt anyone. A world he had never known before.
“Maybe you should drink your coffee,” Takaki said, “before it gets cold.”
“I’d rather you held me a little longer.” The words slipped out before Takaki could stop them and he was horrified. “I’m sorry. I’m being silly. I shouldn’t have said that.”
“My adorable Daiki, I’m glad that you did. It proves that you trust me?” Takaki’s eyes had darkened but they still held the softness, the tenderness, and Daiki guessed that Takaki never held a anyone like this before a not her/him.
Daiki was grateful to Takaki and he actually experienced a sense of relief that he had told him about his father. He felt better as though a whole weight had been lifted from his shoulders, finally giving him permission to move on.
Takaki continued to stroke the side of Daiki’s face, gently sweeping back Daiki’s hair the covered his cute face. Daiki enjoyed the touch of Takaki’s fingers so much that when the latter traced the outline of his lips they parted of their own accord, the tip of his tongue coming out to ouch and taste Takaki’s fingers.
Daiki heard a faint groan in thae back of Takaki’s throat and had no idea what it meant. Was Takaki saying please don’t do that? Or, if you do U won’t be responsible for my actions? It was embarrassing to be totally innocent in the ways of men, though he’s a man himself. The longer he remained in Takaki’s arms the more intense his emotion became. Takaki has reached out and touched his cheek, feeling the fluffiness of it. Takaki then put his hands over Daiki, holding it there for a few seconds before moving it slowly so that he could press his lips on Daiki’s palm, then he folded the latter’s fingers over and kissed the back of his hand then gave it back to Daiki.
The younger guy doesn’t want his hand back. He wanted Takaki to continue to touch him. He wanted the older guy to kiss him, kiss him on his lips. He just closed his eyes imagining how Takaki’s lips will taste and fell in his. He felt Takaki stood up, maybe the latter will return to his seat but then he discovered that Takaki was simply positioning himself more comfortably in order to kiss him. It was a gentle kiss, an experimental kiss, but the touch of Takaki’s lips on him was like fireworks, it exploded to the sky having beautiful sparks.
He felt sensations he never felt before, stimulations in his body. What’s happening to him? How could a simple kiss create such strong feeling? Except that it was not simple. It was a complex kiss, one that spun into every corner of his body, creating tingles and hunger and all sorts of crazy emotions. It was like pins with needles everywhere.
He was afraid to open his eyes and look at Takaki. The latter was a man of world who made love to endless women and men, experienced one, the one who would readily response to him. Whereas all he was doing was submitting. It would hardly be enough for Takaki but letting him know what the latter was doing to him, what was happening to him, felt like revealing his soul. Shame suddenly crept over him, shame that he was allowing the kiss, and he struggled to free himself.
Immediately Takaki let him go. “I’m sorry Daiki, I thought you were ready for this. I want to help you, if I may be permitted to do so? Not all people are the same. You need to know that. There are some good around too.”
Finally Daiki looked at him and what he saw in Takaki’s face was nothing but compassion. The latter was not judging him or comparing him.
“I’m sorry,” Daiki said, his voice no more than husky whisper now. “It’s just that I’m not used to…”
“I know and understand. I’m sorry I misjudged the timing,” Takaki said. “Go to your room if you want to.” Takaki indeed look truly sorry, sad even.
Daiki didn’t want to leave. He didn’t what to be alone, not yet. He wanted to feel Takaki’s strong arms around him again, they held comfort and something else she could not put to.
“Will you, will you just hold me?” Daiki asked, feeling tears in his eyes.
Takaki’s answer was to pull Daiki gently against him, his arms folding around the latter. How long they sat there Daiki didn’t know, but it felt a very long time. He could feel the regular beat of Takaki’s heart and he felt calm with him.
The threatened tears never flow and when Daiki eventually went back to his room he felt a new man. He even wondered what it would feel like to have Takaki in bed beside him. Except that he knew it would be hard for Takaki to sleep with him and not want to make love, but he was not ready for that yet. His mind was slowly adjusting to the idea that such a relationship could work without him feeling that he was doing something wrong, something his father wouldn’t approve of, but Takaki had been such a big influence in his life that it was too soon yet to let go of the old and welcome the new.
At least he was getting there; he hopes Takaki will stay with him there.
A/N: This chapter is so long and I’m lazy to type now so I cut ittttttt~ Gonna post the Part 2 tomorrow XDD So, how’s the fic so far?? It’s still early for THAT parttttt~ fufufufufufufufu~
And this is how the suite of Takaki looked like~ The bed..don't mind the bed XDD I'll post it at Part 2 becausee~ yeahhh because the bed is very important in that part! LOL
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It will be on the next chapter~ the proper oneeee~ XD
Thank you for reading and commenting~
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demo, the room is nice... <3
ur welcome
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Arigatou~ *bows*
Thank you for reading and commenting~
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Banzai tadaiki , banzai!
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Banzaiiiiiii~
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im waiting for the uupdate! :)
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I shall wait for more *u*
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Innocent Daiki ish shooooo cuteee~
Haiii~ post it later~
I'm not good when it comes to smut though...
thank you for reading and commenting ^U^~
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You're so cuteeeee~ XDD
Of course, Takaki needs to be gentle to his soulmate~ <3
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I want to read it >////<
please please ><
Thanks for the fic ne^^
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I'll go there to read it XD